Dear God

                                                             Dear God

When a lot of them think that I pictured a good image, there are so little of them knew what actually happened. Zero of them. Dear God, I don't want to feel discourage but that is exactly what I'm feeling right now. Will i ever get over of what had occurred? 

I know that it is not good to dwell too long in your past, but what if it haunted you all along? I'm not talking about past relationship here, just some story that I couldn't share with other people other than myself. Yeah, not even the person I trust the most. 

It's my fault though back then. And I never being able to forgive myself for that reason. Up until today. Maybe that's why I keep holding myself back to get really attach in a relationship. I'm still afraid. This endless fear, I don't know where it will end. Dear God, the only thing I ask from You is to hold me very tight..