Thank You..

Thank you for a wonderful day..wonderful morning...wonderful wake up...thank you very much. With You by my side, I am thankful for every meaningful moment we go through together. You will always be an important person for me. Up till that very certain day, I promise You will still be the one..Even the stars would change and years would pass by but there is nothing that can change my feelings for You. Strengthen me when I am weak and forget about our promises. Remind me always how much we meant very much to each other. Especially, how much you meant in my life.

That from this moment on, You will be the reason for my life. Beneath my life, my dream and my love, You will be there for me. And don't leave me even when sometimes I ignore You and turn my back on You. That every day I woke up, Your name would be the first thing I think of. I know that this road I've took for You is hard and I know that everybody will go against me, however I believe that I've made the right choice. You taught me how to laugh, how to cry, to have faith, to be persistent and no matter how ugly my life turn in the middle of everything, You love me most. Thank You.....

Nightmare of Nightiangle..

They said if you have repeated or the same nightmare almost every night then, something really hard is bothering you...couldn't be so sure with the statement or fact. Maybe it is just something that people made up. Maybe it is just doesn't exist since then. But, should i tell the story here, maybe it is true that something big is bothering me. I don't know what it is but let the story of my dream or so-called nightmare justify itself..I had this dream of our family (the whole family) come to visit our neighbor. Things were alright at the beginning, when suddenly I felt strange about someone inside the house. The grandfather was supposed to look thin, pale and sick but instead he turns into something monstrous and grin to me as I am the most delicious thing to eat. Then, the house started to turn strange. I mean, at the beginning, there were no grill all around the house, suddenly all the windows and door were locked with it. How strange that can be? It happened to be that our neighbor are not satisfied with the thing sent by someone and the thing is that they have to kill all of us. As if we were a part of a big secret (national secret). At the end, nobody manage to escaped but I found myself lying, being knock down by some girl and all I can say was...'I am a rabbit' (repeatedly)..sounds like a doll or robot...

It might sounds weird and no sense at all, but I was really scared back then in my dream and the fact that I can't save my family made me felt I'm useless, nothing but a selfish girl who won't do anything for some peoples so close to me. What did my dream trying to say to me? Or is it mere a dream? I don't have to worry about anything?? WELL, i Did worry when it hit me continuously, starting few years back....I can't recalled how many times..maybe I need to meet psychiatrist or counselor or maybe priest...or uncle Stephen Bong..(s0meone I knew from my sister)...that's all for now....see you next time..

I am A sTakeHolDer..

with time left just a second...seriously,second???? nah..I'm just kidding....really.. my pace is changing....lot of rumours saying that our courses are not yet being recognized by the authority...i'm not simply saying this, but..tired with this cakap kosong from the people who are supposed to take the responsibility regarding the recognition...don't want to say anything yet..it is to early to predict...eventhough I am a stakeholder...eventhough sometimes I felt I am responsible to take this matter to the court..really???? not really? I ain't have no idea about law.. I might get myself embarassed when I bring up the case......I am just kidding...there is nothing to worry about..this heck is just temporary..I am sure they know how to resolve this matter. After all, they were all masters holders and even PHd. just leave it to them..let them be...just like the old Malay saying '''biarkan Labu terjun dengan labu-labunya'''''....etc....