Wednesday, November 28, 2012

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Confidence


Pretty
                                                                    DEMENTIA

"Dementia is a general term for a decline in mental ability severe enough to interfere with daily life". That's what they said about the disease.   

Can you actually imagine the first thing pop in your mind is losing every memory you have in your life and not recognizing people around you? That's terrifying.      

Facing the world with zero fact and you can't even thinking of any reasonable answer to each question ask?

What does the world have to offer when little by little, everything that used to be so big and important in lives become a small black dot in your mind?

Frustration and sadness emerge in their eyes, showing what great pain in their chest they have to bear. Re-thinking each steps they take gonna affect everything, even make them fond to small mistakes.

Is it really hard to retain and maintain anything that meaningful to them? Please, memory, don't lose yourself...perhaps this is what they beg in the deepness of their heart, each night before they go to bed.

                                       

Monday, November 26, 2012

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Myself with Japanese food

Crazy myself

I'm a beach..LOL

Sweet Candy      


I AM FAULTY

Those are some photos that i would proudly claim as progress in my life. I've been through a lot of experiences which i call bittersweet moment. But, you know the most thing I want to do now is I want to cursed..LOL...weird, right? Reading all my posts in this blog just made me realize that I do cursed and I'm glad I'm normal. Normal? Yeah, normal. I do stuff other people did. Except some that I think is not appropriate for myself. I do crazy stuff with my friends. We go wild sometimes, that's how i call it. I do have wild parts inside me, well, I would say in a manageable manner. And, I cursed in my blog when I am angry. I don't go beat or yell at people, but I would love to do that sometimes. Hahahahha...I'm laughing very hard. However, I turn to be quite a modest person. I am not a very good person but at the same time not that cruel. And I am comfortable with myself. A lot of things can make me pissed, angry, felt down at the same time but, it only last for a while. Hemmm, sometimes, I do have a very cruel intention and keep some cold-blooded revenge in myself. Something that really pissed me off, of course. Anyway, looking at the photos above remind me that I'm just an ordinary girl. 



Sunday, November 25, 2012

Posted by minna at 3:49 PM 0 comments
                                                        
                                                         BEYOND OUR GASP
A whole lot of things occur, happen and exist beyond our gasp. The real fact of our whole existence remain mystery until today, even though there's a lot of science fact and research done to unfold the greatness of human existence.The oxygen we inhale each day, the air we breath, the CO2 we exhale, the blood our heart pumps only can be explained by scientific equations. But, do we really have the answer of how this process even begin and where is the beginning for all of it. Yet, the answer is infinity. So, as with what happen in our life everyday. There is a saying 'things happen for a reason'.No matter how much we crave and put our ass to find the answer, somehow, some matter doesn't have any. Why people kill other people? Was it really because of hatred, revenge or mere jealousy or encourage by other factors? Why people fall in love with some people? Was it mere sexual attraction or because their hearts pump when each time they see or meet each other or because they are destined for each other? The answer is infinity. Because there are a lot of reasons, for each things that happen. Each person have their own cause. 

There are times when we want to give up everything and leave the rest behind. Especially when situation seems to turn their back on us. When crisis arises in our family,when we broke up with our partner, when we got fired, when we lose important people in our lives, when things seems dark. During those period, we are broken hearted. We gonna cry as much as we can, we gonna yell at everyone we bump into, we gonna scream as loud as we can.That's the only thing we want to do, nothing else. But, for some people, these are the moments that are very crucial for them. Dwelling in such negative situation when hope seems mere fairy tale, when faith is fragile, when trust is just a word in their vocabulary. They still stand up even they fall hundred and even thousand times. Defending their reason and whole existence. Giving up seems easy, but to demolish their whole existence require a lot of courage. Because there's always one reason that hold them back. Their loved ones, their family, their friends, the people they met, the people who encourages them. That's why. The reason always evolve around them. And that is "the people that made them that way". Those are the peoples that test them, loved them, hurt them etc. Yet, there is where they find their strength and the reason to live. Moral of the story ' behind every dark cloud there is always a silver lining'. Lives gonna hurt you but at the end of the day that's the only reason you want to live. Thanks Lord !

Thursday, August 16, 2012

Fix You

Posted by minna at 11:05 PM 0 comments
currently at Miri...at friend's house..tumpang sekejap as transit before depart to Serian tonight...wahhh...life's a long journey..but travelling, i enjoy it very much..travelling to different places taught me different culture of other races and people....gonna go back to my roots tonight....tempat jatuh lagikan dikenang,apatah lagi kampung halaman sendiri...miss my elders too much...and my Mi Vida..this time i'll try my best and if nothing work out, i won't regret. because the song Fix You encourage me a lot....i start smiling again. yehaa...don't let life bring you down..you worth to enjoy your life to the fullest. I change my pace. Lights will guide me home..and I will try to fix myself...becoming a better person everyday. Thank You Lord for everyone that You brought into my life, both those who bring happiness or leave sadness, they actually colors my life. Keep my faith with You Lord....the Spirit carries on....

Tuesday, August 14, 2012

After quite a few Months

Posted by minna at 11:17 PM 0 comments
life's getting busier these days..and i haven't step in to this blog after a long, very long time..slightly forgotten. Everything rounding up to eat me..huh sighing would be a good relief for this short time...jobs, life, routine, really pressing me down...kinda out of idea how to distress myself..now, in front of my screen, and screaming at my innocent blog. keeps me wondering and questioning what i want to do next..a lot of things inside my mind now..think i just wanna rest the whole day. should i sleep? maybe....later i want to go salon to cut my hair....maybe...stressed out, i gotta loosen  a bit...says who..say myself....indulge myself with soothing music, wahhhhh...can't wait for it anymore....

Sunday, November 27, 2011

Misfortune

Posted by minna at 4:45 PM 0 comments
what a misfortune... got robbed in the middle of the day...fortunately, i only lose my cell. and it is so lucky that me and my another person is fine..that two bastard, you just wait for the repayment...i am sure that you gonna get something from your wrongdoing..anyway, i didn't give it a damn, because my cell is already broken..so, fine, just took what you want. you think you are super cool huh..well, if i ever met you again, I'll spit at your face..really, you just triggered my anger. If i really want to, you might be dead yesterday. And you are lucky that i still hold myself back. Don't let me see you again..and, take this as my words, you really are dead!!!!!! just wait for God's punishment....then, you'll know..by doing that, you've just humiliated the entire planet as a guy. Coward, chicken, should have shot you at your penis or maybe you just don't have one. Sorry, harsh words but uhhh i've got to put my anger out...maybe, in the future i must learn martial arts for myself..and, robber, thieves, you won't have ur chance anymore. I'll get all of you..

Monday, November 14, 2011

Uncertainty

Posted by minna at 3:41 AM 0 comments
Uncertainty that makes us wait...uncertainty that turn us upside down..uncertainty that trigger our anger, anguish, terror, fear, inferiority etc..I never knew it until i experienced it myself. I saw a lots of broken heart bleeds because of uncertainty. and that's it, period...
 

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